I want to tell myself that this is the very last chance I'm giving you. I don't trust you one bit.

School has been boring, uneventful and rather stressful. Nothing matters anymore, I've realised I can't post up things that have happened during the day and things like that cos it simply, doesn't matter. Nothing registers in my head anymore except emotions such as sadness, anger and occasionally, happiness. Emotions have just taken me over.

every single angry/sad song just seems to be the only thing speaking/relating to me right now. I know its made of cliches and 'act-emo' lyrics but it just speaks to me.

I don't understand anything right now, everything's just a mess and I'm never in a mood to study, its so sad.

anyway enough of complaints that no one wants to hear, I'll talk about camp. Camp is going okay i guess, but it's all quite messy and we started too late and we're running out of time, i think. Quite nervous about that. But i'm looking forward to it, maybe it will fill that emptiness, at least for a little while. Oh God, I need you so badly, please hear me..
(1:58 AM)