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Me

I'm Cara. I'm not the strong believer of love i once was. I tend to have bouts of paranoia and speak my mind too freely. I'm honest enough to tell you you're about as exciting as watching paint dry. You call me weird, but know that everyone is unique, or 'weird', as you say. Yes, you too, weirdo. I am a child of God, but i dont turn the other cheek easily. I do love Gerard Way.

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Saturday, March 29, 2008
a few thousand words

suspended ripples.



captured a giant raindrop.






















mom's 49th birthday



had a shitty week.
Friday was the slackest day: Lots, Kau and i skipped emath&amath to do our giant charcoal peanus (for art elective.) proceeded to do the most retarded poses in the giant mirror in that creepy toilet on the 4th level and just laugh like asses do..
sang songs with Tiffany and walked around/tanned in the field outside during english lesson.
Got upset about petty things and felt 'alone in my pain'.
had cell and won Ryan and guitar.
i just want to break free from everything that's giving me trouble.
Just wanna be emotionally independent.
been listening to alanis morissette, the beatles, aerosmith and other vintage, iconic music.

Do I stress you out
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate
I don't want to disect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter

And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance
Do I wear you out
You must wonder why I'm so relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary

I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker

And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature
What I wouldn't give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around...all around

Why are you so petrified of silence
Here can you handle this?
Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction
And all I need know is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man
a place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
All I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice

-All I Really Want, Alanis morissette.


(2:51 AM)